I can have a really great few days, and then in the flick of a switch, it all heads downhill. Not in a super bad, with drastic circumstances, kinda way. More like a seriously frustrating, losing my temper, new-stuff-I-don’t-know-how-to-deal-with, kinda way.
I’m pretty sure Ava starting school has something to do with it, as her new found ‘Preptitude’ has hit our house (in a big way!). I touched on my learnings from Term 1 in last week’s post.
Suddenly she has developed a whole new set of ways to push the boundaries, AND my buttons. Sometimes I can manage it and other days, it sends me in a tailspin. I know I shouldn’t react, but she just keeps pushing and pushing! And yes, I’m the adult. But geez it’s hard when your small person is standing there with her hands on hips, cocking her head, rolling her eyes and being a total brat!
There’s small comfort in knowing I’m not alone. A lot of the other parents (at school) are feeling my pain, and this newfound behaviour seems not uncommon. We are all having the same issues and it’s the number one topic of conversation at drop off and pick up.
For the most part, Ava is really enjoying school, but the tiredness is overwhelming. We used to have Fridays off together, and it was great to kick start our weekend with a pretty leisurely ‘girls’ day. I know she misses it, and I do too. And now, by Friday she’s exhausted and she has to get through another day of school. I feel tired for her, just thinking about it.
And she is yet to understand that cycle of starting all over again. She graduated from kinder and then she had to start over (at the bottom, so to speak). Just like when the end of Grade 6 rolls around, and then end of Year 12. With each graduation, comes new (and sometimes scary and overwhelming) adventures. I very much remember that pressure of having to start again, it was always daunting.
Back to my girl, who really is a gorgeous little lady and mostly, very well behaved. But she’s a sensitive little soul, and I need to be able to nurture that. I’m not afraid to say, that I’m not doing the best job of it right now.
So with the end of Term 1 approaching, I’m planning on doing some research and reading over the school holidays. It’s super important to me to manage my own behaviour, so I can better support Ava through this challenging time.
If you have any good resources, I’d love to hear from you.
Thanks for reading.
PS – Here’s one from the vault. I still can’t believe my Mum kept some of these, and it’s so great to be able to share with Ava.